So today’s post is a little more personal than usual. I’ve recently had a lot of stuff shooting around in my mind, and I think that it’s time to get some out in the open. I’ve decided that I’m going to start working on myself, I’m not a bad person but I think there’s always room for improvement. So I made a list of somethings I want to work on and focus on fixing as we move towards the new year.
First, I want to work on bettering my relationship with God. I’ve always been a believer, but I’ve never been super open about my faith. I think that part of the reason I’m like that is because I don’t have that much knowledge and I’m not 100% confident in my beliefs. Recently, I’ve been finding more confidence in my faith (with some help from a friend), so I want to work on learning more and going to church more often so I can be completely confident.
Secondly, I really want to work on trying to see the good in people before I judge them too quickly. I want to give everyone a fair chance. I tend to listen to what others say about a person, and before I even meet that person I have a negative image in my brain and that’s all I see. If I judged too quickly all the time, I would have some of my best friends.
Next I want to work on accepting myself as I am. I’m not usually the girl that sits in front of the mirror and judges every part of myself, but let’s be real, all girls have things they don’t like about themselves and we get so down on our selves about that one thing. I want to be confident in myself and worry less about what others think about me because it shouldn’t matter. I’ve even caught myself not accepting compliments because I don’t believe what they’re saying, and that’s really sad. No one is society’s picture of “perfect”, but we are all perfect in God’s eyes and that should be enough for us.
My next thing goes along with giving everyone a fair chance, I want to try to not partake in gossip and just avoid saying mean things about people in general. It’s honestly a nasty thing, and I try to tell myself I don’t do it that much, but we’re all guilty of it. It kind of comes with human nature, unfortunately. This is going to be a hard thing to work on it, because I think I do it without even realizing that it’s gossiping. I know I wouldn’t like people talking poorly about me, so I shouldn’t do it to others either.
I also want to work on being more confident and standing up for myself. In the past, I’ve tend to let some people walk over me. It’s never been anything too serious but I feel that I should be strong enough to stand up for myself and let people know what I’m thinking. Because I hate confrontation, I tend to not tell people how I really feel because I’m too chicken, which is really hard on my emotions. So that’s definitely something else to add to the list.
I also found some pretty cool, and inspiring quotes/verses that I think can help in my process.
“Make the most of yourself…for that is all there is for yourself.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson
“We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. This includes changing to please Him. If we trust our own strength, we will fail. Satan can defeat us. If we use Christ’s strength we will succeed, because Satan can never defeat Him. Perhaps we have failed in the past because we have trusted our own power instead of using Christ’s.” Philippians 4:13
“Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9